Have you ever noticed that big important emotional discussions/conflicts always happen in the middle of the night? Why is that? Last night I kinda broke down, stress of the housing situation and stephen always being gone and feeling like i couldnt handle being a wife/mother...so of course we didnt get to sleep till about 2. Yikes. But i feel better now! Besides the exhaustion, of course. Why cant stuff like that happen at a nice convenient afternoon hour? Ah well. I love my little boys, but i need to stop feeling like I need to be at their beck and call 24/7. Scoot needs to learn to play independently again. Any tips??? He used to....Anyway. Dont you hate it when you get all excited about an idea or activity and it fails? I wanted to rake leaves for Scoot to play in, so i borrowed a rake from a neighbor and got a great pile....and he came out crawling with little white bugs. One of our trees is infested. No wonder there are so many leaves! Anyway, that was a bust. Kinda gross and creepy too. We'll have to go over to the golf course and try. Stephen's going to ask for a whole week off work, PAID!!! He hasnt had one this year, and he totally deserves it, now we have to keep our fingers crossed that his boss, Lou, will be understanding. I love Lou, and i appreciate all he has done for us, epecially when Joe was born, but it will be nice when we move and stephen doesnt have an emotional obligation to his job. It looks all pretty and cloudy and Autumn-y outside, but its 75 degrees! Argh. Oh well, its supposed to cool off tomorrow. I'm making chili, so it better! Chili during warm weather just doesnt work. Hmmm, thanks for the tip Becca, just putting my thoughts out here instead of worrying about what people want to read is much more enjoyable!